“I Took The Red Pill” is a reference to the movie The Matrix as well as both a blue-state/red-state analogy and, most importantly, a reference to seeking and finding the truth.

I was born and raised in a very liberal blue-state Democrat family.

At 18 I left home and went to a well-known (and fairly liberal) university in a red state. My alma mater, like many of America’s great universities, was founded by Christians to raise up Christian leaders and glorify Jesus Christ, but the university was later taken over by Secular Progressives who subverted the founder’s original intent and made “liberal education” the primary goal. It’s no surprise that coming from a liberal upbringing, and attending a (now) liberal college, I was very liberal throughout college.

It was not until I began to associate with successful Christian businessmen that my eyes were truly opened. I took the red pill, accepted Jesus Christ’s sacrifice of his blood for me, understood the truth, and understood the Matrix called the world we live in.

Morpheus: The Matrix is everywhere. It is all around us. Even now, in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work… when you go to church… when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.

Neo: What truth?

Morpheus: That you are a slave, Neo. Like everyone else you were born into bondage. Into a prison that you cannot taste or see or touch. A prison for your mind.

Morpheus: I’m trying to free your mind, Neo. But I can only show you the door. You’re the one that has to walk through it.

At 23, I took the red pill. I confessed with my mouth the Lord Jesus and believed in my heart that God has raised Him from the dead, and I was saved.

My eyes, like Neo’s were opened, and I saw things I had never seen before.

Neo: Why do my eyes hurt?

Morpheus: You’ve never used them before.

Now I know the truth, and knowing the truth has set me free.

Jesus is Lord!

I asked God to fill me with His Holy Spirit and as I started praying and reading the Bible, more and more truth has been revealed to me.

My political conversion was a direct result of my spiritual conversion (taking the Red Pill and learning the truth), so since both Neo and I took the Red Pill, I guess you could call me a “Neo” Conservative. :-)

Learning God’s truth took me from liberal Democrat to conservative Republican. That is why many Democrats (those that aren’t really Democrats but rather DemoNratic Socialist Communists) can’t stand born-again Christians. In fact, the DemoNrats have a clearly stated goal of “Defeating the Ultra-Right“).  They are the “Agents” that seek to destroy us and our “Zionist” nation:

Agent Smith: Find them and destroy them.

Our evangelism threatens them. (A noteworthy example: they can’t stand that “Jane Roe” of the infamous Roe v. Wade  Supreme Court case has been born-again and is now speaking out publicly against abortion from a Christian/Pro-Life perspective. She is exposing the truth now about the lies and deception that were used in 1973 to influence that Supreme Court decision.)

Many people aren’t ready to know the truth:

Morpheus: The Matrix is a system, Neo. That system is our enemy. But when you’re inside, you look around, what do you see? Businessmen, teachers, lawyers, carpenters. The very minds of the people we are trying to save. But until we do, these people are still a part of that system and that makes them our enemy. You have to understand, most of these people are not ready to be unplugged. And many of them are so inured, so hopelessly dependent on the system, that they will fight to protect it.

Hillary Clinton once mentioned a “Vast Right-Wing Conspiracy”. Many people laughed. Unfortunately, there really is a “Vast Left-Wing Conspiracy”, and they want to replace the Constitution of the United States with this Communist constitution.

I guess the successful Christian businessmen who introduced me to Jesus Christ are what Hillary was referring to as the “Vast Right-Wing Conspiracy”…

If so, count me in.
Proud, card-carrying member of the Vast Right-Wing Conspiracy!

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  1. James Ballou says:

    Hi Red Pill:

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    Please visit my website to see the contest rules (which are simple) and remember that this does not require any purchase. Let me know if you have any questions.

    Warm regards,

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    author of Soul Survivor

  2. James Ballou (Mormon Doc),
    Please clarify your views on polygamy.

  3. James Ballou says:

    My personal view on polygamy is that it is not something that I would not want to be part of and that my Church does not support. I belong to the Church of Jesus-Christ of Latter-day Saints (the Mormons) and we have not practiced polygamy for more than 100 years. However, there have been conditions in the history of my faith that polygamy was practiced and if it was still practiced it would not change my view of the Church. The reason for this is due to the way I was converted to the Gospel of Jesus Christ (a wholly different subject). Therefore my view is that I personally want nothing to do with the practice but I would support the practice if it was given by God through a living prophet. Let me know if you want me to elaborate on any of these subjects.

  4. James,
    Thank you for responding. I’m still left a little confused by how you said it is “not something that I would not want to be part of”. Did you mean to put that first “not” there? (I’m guessing no, based on the context of the rest of your comment).

    Good luck with your book. I will not be entering your contest, as I don’t want to reveal my identity. Thanks for the offer, though.

  5. dfunkt says:

    sounds to me like you drank the red kool-aid!

    religiousness a manifestation of superstition, and conservatism is morally wrong. i say that conservatism is morally wrong because, primarily, conservatism is founded upon the principal of traditionalism, which means “doing things the way they have been done in the past.” that is contrary to the natural orientation of humanity, which is forwards-looking.

    you aren’t neo, you are non!

  6. Thomas Shawn says:

    I’m still left a little confused by how you said it is
    “not something that I would not want to be part of”.

    I’m confused too. A double negative means positive. I think having more than one wife as some sort of weird punishment,

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  8. Tom says:

    itooktheredpill — I don’t think that “The Matrix” really describes you best. For someone of your intellect, I’d probably come up with some type of nickname relating to “Forrest Gump.” You know, the movie about that retard.

  9. Tom,

    Thank you for your comment!

    Ad hominem attacks are what a leftist uses when they can’t argue the point! When you can’t attack the argument, attack the man.

    It’s good to know that’s the best you have to offer.


    P.S. I think the PC “hate crime” police are going to come after you for using the word “retard”.

  10. Kathryn says:

    itooktheredpill (love the name), I started a petition aimed at liberal/moderate Republicans who have been acting more like Democrats for too long.


    I think it’s time we Conservatives move to take our party back. I’d love it if you took a look at the petition. If you agree, please sign it then pass it on!

  11. Kathryn,

    The petition looks good. Please let me know who you supported in the Republican Primaries this year.

    Who is the “Reagan Republican”?

  12. lipitor10mg says:

    Hello Red Pill, I first saw your name at Michelle Malkin’s site and I’m glad you have a blog. I agree with you 100% on your views on the left. The liberal media and most hard core Democrats believe that conservative Christians are uneducated and stupid. They generally don’t respect our views and tend to attack the person rather than argue their ideas. However, I have some Democratic Christian friends who disagree with me but always through our ideological differences and not personally. Christians, then have a common belief that transcends politics and unites us all whether we are Democrats or Republicans.

  13. educlaytion says:

    Hey fellow Red Pill Taker. I’m so glad I found this site. When I launched my blog a while back, I also used the Matrix (in a different context) to describe my mindset. Neo grabbing that red pill is the first thing my visitors see. I will be reading more of your stuff soon, but I already like the way you handled the name caller in this thread. Just stay above it and you win. Thanks again…

  14. ernie says:

    Saw your comment on the Michelle Malkin website in which you praised the John Birch Society.

    For an alternative viewpoint, see the following report which is based upon first-time-released FBI files and documents.

    My report explains why J. Edgar Hoover and senior FBI officials described the Birch Society as “extremist”, “irrational”, “irresponsible”, “fanatics” and “lunatic fringe”.


  15. Ernie,

    What is your personal agenda? Do you support or reject Marxism-Leninism?

  16. ernie says:

    I have no personal agenda and I certainly do not support Marxism-Leninism.

    Why would you pose such an insulting and brain-dead question?

    Are you an honorable person who is prepared to engage in principled discussion OR are you someone who immediately questions the integrity, character, and patriotism of anyone who disputes something you believe?

    I posted my previous message because very few people are aware of the judgments made by Hoover and senior FBI officials within the Domestic Intelligence Division.

    Since Robert Welch and the Birch Society have always effusively praised both Hoover and the FBI (see for example the JBS article “The Wisdom and Warning of J. Edgar Hoover” in the 10/66 issue of the JBS magazine, American Opinion) — then, obviously, this gives JBS admirers an opportunity for a reality check to compare the conclusions made by the person (Hoover) and the institution (the FBI) that they recommend as the most knowledgeable, authoritative and reliable source of factual data on the communist movement.

    If YOU can’t handle FACTUAL data — then just say so but stop your cheap shots.

  17. Ernie,

    Those were two legitimate questions.

    You obviously have spent a lot of time on your web site, as I have on mine. I know what my motivation is, and I wanted to know yours.

    Asking, “Do you support or reject Marxism-Leninism?” is not “an insulting and brain-dead question” or “cheap shot”.

    I’m glad that you “certainly do not support Marxism-Leninism”, but I think your response doth protest too much.

    As I said in the comments at Michelle Malkin’s site,

    I’m not a member of the John Birch Society, but from what I’ve looked into on their web site, they seem to be on track.


    It is interesting how both the original John Birch and Larry McDonald, chairman of the John Birch Society, were murdered by communists.

    Do you contest that?

    Your site says:

    This Report will explain why senior FBI officials (including FBI Director J. Edgar Hoover) came to describe the Birch Society in FBI memos as “extremist”, “irrational”, “irresponsible”, “fanatics”, and “lunatic fringe.”

    I think that many Americans would describe self-admitted revolutionary communists Bill Ayers and Van Jones, Obama’s “family friend” and Green Jobs “Czar”, respectively, as “extremist”, “irrational”, “irresponsible”, “fanatics”, and “lunatic fringe.”

    Jones had to resign when the truth about him became known.

    Ayers bombed the Pentagon and Capitol building, and his wife bombed a police station, murdering a police officer. Can you handle that FACTUAL data?

    Can you disprove even a single one of the TRUTH: statements in the post below?

    A Different “9/11 Truth”.

  18. ernie says:

    I think you need to take another pill — perhaps another color?

    Your question regarding Marxism-Leninism had no possible predicate. It is comparable to me asking you upon our first contact:

    Are you a child molester?

    With respect to your questions regarding whom Communists have killed — again totally irrelevant to whether or not the Birch Society disseminates accurate and truthful information.

    Logically the choices are as follows:

    (1) Yes, Communists killed John Birch and Larry McDonald — but the JBS still disseminates falsehoods
    (2) No, Communists did not kill JB or LM — but the JBS still disseminates falsehoods

    With respect to John Birch — have you ever done any INDEPENDENT research of your own on that matter OR do you just accept what the Birch Society has presented?

    For example: are you aware of the fact that many persons who served with John Birch stated that he was arrogant and brought about his own death because he did not exercise prudent judgment?

    Are you aware of the following statement by General Albert Wedemeyer (Newsweek, 12/4/61)??

    “I knew John Birch, as a captain in China, when I was out there during the war. Birch was one of a number of men who participated in operations in China, parachuted behind enemy lines. He provoked the attack on himself; he was arrogant. I warned Welch not to make a hero of Birch. That’s why I quit as an adviser. I think Welch is a dedicated, fine American but he lacks good judgment.”

    I suggest you review the historic precedent-setting libel lawsuit by Elmer Gertz which arose from a defamatory article about Gertz which was published in the JBS magazine, American Opinion.

    After 14 years of litigation, including 2 jury trials, several appeals, and review by the U.S. Supreme Court — Gertz prevailed and the Birch Society paid him $100,000 in compensatory damages and $300,000 in punitive damages.

    As you may know, punitive damages are only allowed when “malice” can be shown, i.e. “reckless disregard for truth”. [Even the Birch Society’s own lawyer during the Supreme Court oral arguments (Clyde Watts) acknowledged that the JBS admitted at trial that their article contained “falsehoods” about Gertz!]

    Aren’t you interested in discovering the reasons WHY senior FBI officials concluded that the Birch Society was “irrational”, “irresponsible” and “extremist”??

    Aren’t you interested in discovering WHY giants within the conservative and anti-communist movements such as Sen. Barry Goldwater, Russell Kirk, Frank Meyer, and James Burnham denounced the Birch Society as harmful to both legitimate anti-communism and conservatism?

    Aren’t you interested in learning about all of the instances when JBS speakers contradicted their sworn testimony before Congressional committees or in courtrooms after they became paid speakers for the Birch Society?

    How do any of your questions to me address ANY of those matters?

  19. Your question regarding Marxism-Leninism had no possible predicate.

    Wrong. The John Birch Society (JBS) is strongly anti-communist. It’s to be expected that communists are strongly anti-JBS. You appear to be strongly anti-JBS. It is logical to establish from the onset whether you are a communist.

    I always seek the truth. At this time, I do not know enough about the history and writings of either the JBS or you to compare and contrast them for trustworthiness.

    I do find it interesting that you didn’t answer the questions in my prior comment.

  20. ernie says:

    So, if I understand your first paragraph correcting,

    (a) you automatically ASSUME that critics of the Birch Society are likely to be Communists because

    (b) you also ASSUME that anti-communists are unlikely to be critics of the JBS

    I think you have revealed the quality of your intellect by that absurd reasoning. The most potent and significant critics of the JBS have ALWAYS been anti-communist conservatives.

    With respect to your final sentence about me not answering your questions — I am not interested in those matters.

    I certainly understand why you want to me to discuss your straw men arguments, but it is a rather transparent attempt on your part to divert attention from my original comments which responded to your favorable JBS characterization on the Malkin webpage.

    In a large diverse country there will always be fringe elements. But the key question is whether or not we seek to validate their perspective by favorable comments, or, instead, we dissociate ourselves from malicious falsehoods which they disseminate. You chose to validate the JBS — which clearly establishes that you are using the other matters you mention as a disinformation campaign — just as you started this discussion by insinuating that I might have some connection to Marxism-Leninism. SHAME ON YOU!

  21. Ernie,

    I did not “automatically ASSUME that critics of the Birch Society are likely to be Communists”. That is a false statement.

    Rather than make an assumption, I did what a person seeking the truth would do… I went to the source and asked questions. Rather than make an assumption, I asked you:

    What is your personal agenda? Do you support or reject Marxism-Leninism?

    If you are offended by those questions, too bad. They were honest questions from a person seeking the truth.

    You also took offense to my “favorable JBS characterization on the Malkin webpage”, which consisted of the following: “I’m not a member of the John Birch Society, but from what I’ve looked into on their web site, they seem to be on track.”

    I think most conservatives, if they looked at http://www.jbs.org/ as I did, would likely say the same thing.

    And as to “conspiracy theories” about Communists in our government, I think more and more people are realizing that this is not “conspiracy theory”, but conspiracy fact. Obama “czar” Van Jones is a self-admitted revolutionary communist. Obama “family friend” Bill Ayers is a self-admitted revolutionary communist. Members of Congress (and the United Nations) have expressed an admiration of revolutionary communists like Fidel Castro.

    I invite you to read:

    Ayers is a Violent, Revolutionary Communist. What is Obama?


    The Epitome of Everything I Have Ever Said on This Blog

    If you once again say:

    I am not interested in those matters.

    Then don’t be surprised if I am not interested in what you have to say.

  22. ernie says:

    Are you so gullible that you believe that a Communist would honestly answer the type of question you originally posed?

    Please do not assume (again) what “most conservatives” would do. Genuine conservatives DO NOT question the character, integrity, or patriotism of their critics (as is standard JBS practice). Instead, they simply present their best case for their point of view.

    Whatever Ayers did 40 years ago has no bearing upon who he is today UNLESS he continues to behave as he did 40 years ago. Is he still a “violent revolutionary communist” — blowing up buildings, starting riots, encouraging violations of law by otherwise law-abiding people?

    I think what you are missing is the CONTEXT for the radicalism which developed during the 1960’s. I do not know how old you are, but perhaps you are so young that you do not have any personal knowledge of what occurred during that time? MANY people (both left wing and right wing) associated themselves with radical causes and ideas because of their anger over what was happening.

    * Our politicians and civil rights leaders were being assassinated
    * Our government was not being responsive to ordinary political pressure
    * Our kids were in a rebellious mode because their very lives were at stake — thanks to a seemingly unending and unpopular war

    When peaceful changes becomes impossible, violent change becomes inevitable.

    Thankfully, the Ayers episodes to which you refer to were very limited in scope and duration and impact.

    Significantly, EVERYBODY who attempts to link Ayers to Obama…
    has been politically hostile to Obama all along — in other words, even if there were no such person as Bill Ayers, they would STILL be opposed to Obama

    In addition, the conservative Republicans in Illinois who ACTUALLY know Obama personally because of their contacts and experiences with him in the Illinois legislature, DO NOT make the type of sinister insinuations which you delight in making.

    Associating liberals with “communism” and “socialism” has been standard extreme right dogma for 80+ years. Every Democratic President since Woodrow Wilson has been accused of being a Communist by the extreme right in our country. And, many times, prominent Republicans such as Dwight Eisenhower and Nelson Rockefeller have ALSO been described as “Communists”.

    Your smear tactic is digusting but revealing.

  23. Are you so gullible that you believe that a Communist would honestly answer the type of question you originally posed?

    I was giving you the benefit of the doubt.

    Being gullible is nothing more than trusting someone who shouldn’t be trusted. If you’re suggesting I am gullible, then you’re suggesting you shouldn’t be trusted.

    Genuine conservatives DO NOT question the character, integrity, or patriotism of their critics

    Yet, you question my character and integrity. So, by your own definition, you are not a genuine conservative.

    And you seem to have a singular obsession against the John Birch Society. Please link to something you have written that is not focused against the John Birch Society. That should be easy for a “genuine conservative” to do.

    Whatever Ayers did 40 years ago has no bearing upon who he is today UNLESS he continues to behave as he did 40 years ago. Is he still a “violent revolutionary communist” — blowing up buildings, starting riots, encouraging violations of law by otherwise law-abiding people?

    Modern-day Bill Ayers has danced upon the American flag, travelled no less than 4 times to Hugo Chavez’s Venezuela and called them “comrades”, written on his blog about the “End of an Empire”, and possibly even ghost-written “Obama’s” book.

    Significantly, EVERYBODY who attempts to link Ayers to Obama… has been politically hostile to Obama all along

    Not true. Bill Ayers himself linked himself to Obama (saying they were, in fact, “family friends”), and Obama linked himself to Ayers when he endorsed Ayers’ book in a newspaper.

    Your smear tactic is digusting but revealing.

    Yet you delight in smearing me. I find your comments digusting but revealing.

  24. ernie says:

    1. Quote something where I questioned your character and integrity

    2. Quote something where I “smeared” you

    I have stated (factually) that you presented a favorable comment about the Birch Society. I then suggested that you read evaluations of the JBS made by undisputed conservative anti-communists who totally disagree with you that the JBS “is on track”. I also referred you to an historic precedent-setting libel judgment against the JBS (which, incidentally, is just one of many examples where JBS surrogates used JBS “logic” and “evidence” and they were found guilty of libel.

    YOUR reply to all that was to link Obama to someone whom you claim is a “violent revolutionary communist”.

    You do not cite even one iota of factual evidence to demonstrate that Ayers TODAY is engaged in, or advocates, or condones “violence” or “revolution”. If you actually have that data, then please IMMEDIATELY contact your nearest FBI office and present them with your facts so that they may initiate appropriate action against Ayers under the various laws which pertain to seditious conspiracy or violent overthrow of our government or other relevant federal statutes.

    You claim that it is important information that Obama endorsed a bookj written by Ayers. What, specifically, did Obama endorse? Did he endorse any Ayers ideas which advocate violence or revolution?

    You claim that Ayers travelled 4 times to Venezuela and called them comrades. Is that illegal?

    If we should condemn Obama for that sort of “association” with Ayers, then please explain why we should not ALSO condemn YOU for your “association” with the Birch Society by presenting a favorable comment about them?

    Your weasel words do not hide the fact that you want to defame Obama and you are prepared to use the most flimsy and lame “connections” to do so.

  25. ernie says:

    Incidentally, why would you possibly be interested in anything I have written that “is not focused against the Birch Society”?

    Since you have expressed no interest whatsoever in reviewing FACTUAL data concerning what giants within the conservative and anti-communist movements have said about the JBS and its assertions — then why would you be interested in anything else I might present?

    I guess what you are saying is that you want to divert attention from your commendation of the JBS so that you are not held accountable for your pro-JBS sentiment.

  26. You said:

    “Why would you pose such an insulting and brain-dead question?”

    “stop your cheap shots.”

    “I think you have revealed the quality of your intellect by that absurd reasoning. ”


    “Are you so gullible…”

    “Your smear tactic is digusting…”

    “Your weasel words…”

    And then you have the audacity to say:

    1. Quote something where I questioned your character and integrity

    2. Quote something where I “smeared” you

    Bill Ayers wrote on his blog on September 10, 2008:

    “The end of an empire is messy at best….

    and this one is ending like all the rest.” Randy Newman

    End of an Empire?

    When Bill Ayers spoke in Venezuela, he praised their revolution.

    Chavez’s Venezuela: Obama and Ayers

    Van Jones is a communist who has advocated “Change on a revolutionary level”, and Obama picked him to be a “czar”.

    I’m done talking to you ernie. Good-bye.

  27. i beleive your interpretation of the matrix is wrong.
    the matrix coincides with buddhism much better than christianity.

    the path to truth does not end. it only ends when one realizes there is no truth, no suffering, only illusion.

    morailty is man made and only ones self can abide by each ones morals.

    to push any idea on any one else is not my agenda.

    “god” is everything.
    is this he is nothing.


    these things are not seperate. they are one.

    good and bad live off of eachothers man made existence.

    without the left, there would be no right.
    and withour the right, there would be no left.

    you are all one, we are all one.

    we are none.

    sit still and feel the breeze carry your soul into the void.

    the soul is self awareness.

    lsiten to my spiritual music

  28. Kunlun says:

    You took the blue pill. You’re deeper into the matrix now than when you started.

  29. PineKeln says:

    itooktheredpill, I’ve appreciated your posts on Michelle Malkin’s site. God bless you in your walk.

  30. PineKeln,

    Thank you for your kind words. I appreciate that very much. God bless you, too!

  31. FYI, sometimes people ask if my gravitar is a picture of me.

    It is actually a crop from the picture above from The Matrix. Neo took the red pill, and so did I.

    As to what I really look like, I have been told that I look a bit like both Keanu Reeves (as Neo in “The Matrix”) and Ron Livingston (as Peter Gibbons, the main character in “Office Space”).

  32. daniel says:

    I want to just say “Thank You” for your testimony and being willing to stand up for the truth and this great country! I had a similar experience with falling for liberal “higher” education in the 80’s, and also had some Christian business friends who helped me leave that lost path and see why America really is that shining city on a hill! I’m proud to be American, proud of our soldiers, and am sick of both the apathy and daily destruction now rampant in our nation! Keep on speaking the truth and “Fear not” . . . God bless you and your family! Jesus IS Lord!

  33. Daniel,
    Thank you very much for your comment. I appreciate those kind and uplifting words. Jesus is Lord, and I am blessed to hear from a brother in Christ. May God bless you and your family, too, as we remember Jesus Christ’s birth, and the reason why God the Father gave Jesus the Son to us:

    For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.
    John 3:16

    And what His purpose was when He came:

    For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that He might destroy the works of the devil.
    1 John 3:8b

    Even as we remember the baby born in a manger, we should remember that He came to destroy the works of the devil with His own death, burial, and resurrection, so that we could be set free.

    Merry Christmas, Daniel!

  34. daniel says:

    Thank you for posting those two verses. Tonight I was given the opportunity to share them with some college students. Since I read them today they have been on my heart, and when somebody tonight asked “Does anyone have a word from the Lord?” it was those two verses I knew were to be passed along. Just thought you should know.

    Merry Christmas itooktheredpill! (-:

  35. tojoflaherty says:

    Vast Right-wing Conspirator, shouting out to you, here.

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  37. dalees107 says:

    Awesome! Keep the faith!

  38. zee757 says:

    hey guys, I took the red pill and now I wish I could go back. I see it all around us, a bit too much. I now live in fear, I am depressed and too afraid to do anything. I see how they have enslaved us, how they enslaved humanity, it is everywhere. I feel like they took away my sole purpose in life. I am never happy, because everywhere I go, everything I do I see them watching me and telling me what to do. I cry for humanity, how did we make this possible? We have absolutely no freedom whatsoever. I need serious help, its like nobody understands where I am coming from. Like I am abnormal. I try so hard to teach people what I see but to no avail. Please, if anyone can hear me I seek your help. I wish I could still live in the fantasy world that I was once in. But at the same time I thank God for opening my eyes so that I can step back into reality but it is so hard to live in reality. I have no idea where to turn to, I feel so alone and sad.

  39. zee757,

    You said, “I now live in fear”. I encourage you to reject fear and live by faith.

    For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

    Timothy 1:7

    For we walk by faith, not by sight.

    2 Corinthians 5:7

    Happy are the people whose God is the Lord!

    Psalm 144:15b

    Happy is he who has the God of Jacob for his help,
    Whose hope is in the Lord his God,

    Psalm 146:5

    Happy is the man who finds wisdom,
    And the man who gains understanding;

    Proverbs 3:13

    He who heeds the word wisely will find good,
    And whoever trusts in the Lord, happy is he.

    Proverbs 16:20

    Happy is the man who is always reverent,
    But he who hardens his heart will fall into calamity.

    Proverbs 28:14

    Where there is no revelation, the people cast off restraint;
    But happy is he who keeps the law.

    Proverbs 29:18

    When you say, “I am never happy…I cry for humanity”, I have to assume that even though you say, “I thank God for opening my eyes”, you do not really know Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. I encourage you to cry out to Him and believe that He is who He says He is…

    Then Jesus spoke to them again, saying, “I am the light of the world. He who follows Me shall not walk in darkness, but have the light of life.”

    John 8:12

    I am the door. If anyone enters by Me, he will be saved, and will go in and out and find pasture.

    John 10:9

    Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live.

    John 11:25

    You call Me Teacher and Lord, and you say well, for so I am.

    John 13:13

    Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.

    John 14:6

    “I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser.
    “I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing.

    John 15:1,5

    Pilate therefore said to Him, “Are You a king then?”

    Jesus answered, “You say rightly that I am a king. For this cause I was born, and for this cause I have come into the world, that I should bear witness to the truth. Everyone who is of the truth hears My voice.”

    John 18:37

    I encourage you to rebuke fear, rebuke depression, and live the life that God has called you to live.

    The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.

    John 10:10

    Don’t allow the thief (Satan) to steal your joy. Live the abundant life that Jesus came for you to have!

  40. zee757 says:

    That seemed to be just the right advice that I needed. I have truly lost my relationship with God. Have faith in God the almighty, I havent really been in touch with my Lord. Thank you for making me realise what was missing in my life and also thank you for taking the time to reply to me, it is appreciated. Thank you once again and God bless

  41. zee757,
    You’re very welcome, and I’m glad that helped. I can relate to what you wrote earlier… if it weren’t for what God has done for us, I’d be very, very depressed looking at the state of the world today. It is only in Jesus that I find my hope, peace, joy, and strength renewed. I encourage you to use the Bible Gateway to search on words and topics that you are thinking about. If you are feeling unhappy, search on words like happy, joy, etc. I have found it to be an invaluable resource to help direct me to chapters and verses in the Bible that speak directly to my need, or to help me find a verse that I know is in the Bible but I just forgot where.

    It is my pleasure to share this with you, and I am happy that it has helped. Jesus Christ is the way, the truth, and the life, and he came that you may have life more abundantly.

    In His love,
    Red Pill

  42. zee757 says:

    This is only the truth that you speak. God our creator.

  43. Red Pill, it is a joy to read about what God is doing in your life. May He use you to become a great witness of His love and truth!

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